Had been quite awhile since I felt so down. Month end closing started and I had been down with gastric/colic and the pain comes n goes. Hopefully its not turning for the worst though. Started to feel blunt pains when I swallowed water this evening.
Whenever the pain comes and goes, I ask myself how did Amma manage to get through till the final stage of stomach cancer without complaining at all... It was only during the last few days of her life when she did sigh slightly louder than usual and aunt got her the morphine stick ons. I wonder if I will ever learn to accept physical sufferings in a better manner in this life like Amma.
Was almost at the brink of breaking down this evening when I was so tired from work and at the same time missing Amma. Seriously, I just wished I listened to the doctor and took a rest at home instead today. Hopefully, tomorrow will be a better day.
